Fleurs

Lately I’ve been feeling so distant from my mom.. I love her so much, and I wish we were like best friends, I think the problem is that she works too much and is always tired and I am the kind of girl who doesnt talk much about her “problems” or anything at all.

& then there’s this other thing.. my sister, we fight too much and I know it upsets my mom a lot :( But I just can’t help it, she irritates me so much. But I know that I shouldn’t care because she’s seven and I am sixteen, I should be mature and just not fight with her, but she doesnt respect me at all.. she’s so spoiled. And lately she doesnt even need to do much to irritate me, i can’t even stand her voice anymore. I feel terrible saying this, but it’s true.. I know I need to change this about myself.. I really do :’(

Not sex. I’m far too young for that. What I want is to have him wrap his arms around me, and let me rest my head on his chest. I want to feel that sense of security and comfort. I want to fall asleep to the rhythm of his breathing. And I want to wake up to him stroking my hair saying “good morning beautiful”.